Becoming a Woman of Wisdom and Grace

I want to be a Proverbs 31 woman, but sometimes I need Gods grace and mercy to get me through.

Have you ever found yourself starting the day right, doing all of the things and being on time? Just knowing that the day will flow the way you want it to, for it all to go downhill with a little bit of overthinking. Too much time on our hands or really its making time for the things we don’t even need to.

Lets face it, we live in a world today that we reach for our phones before anything else. We need that dopamine hit before we start our day, a task or even just when we are sitting with family. Will we ever learn that dopamine hit can also turn the opposite direction for us depending on our algorithm or just looking into another persons profile?

Yesterday I had a spiral effect to the day. Everything started good. I had good intentions towards my husband, kids and ultimately God. I knew I wanted to do my devotional, not pick up my phone and move accordingly. But after planning it all in my head, I still out of habit picked up my phone to see what time it was. My mistake, because that’s where it starts. It wasn’t just to see the time, it turned into my fingers just moving to the apps. Checking messages, looking at Facebook and Instagram and reading all the post that set your mood back to what you wanted to get past.

So after all of that moving on the phone, the time was gone. It was late and we had to rush to get ready. Not only that but the doubts were creeping in. “Why did I let myself do that? Now I am late, my kids will be crabby about getting ready. I might have to yell.” All of the things. Not to mention, the doubts on “what is my husband hiding? Is there someone else taking his attention? Where has our intimacy gone?”

All of these thoughts get into your mind and create themselves a home. We can sometimes mistake them for wisdom. Sometimes make them out to be truth and in reality turn our calm into a storm.

That is exactly what I let happen. I yelled at my kids, I was rushing and I sent my husband all the text about my overthinking. I really laid into him on things that I probably should have used grace and wisdom to calm myself in.

Now, thinking back on it, I am ashamed of how I acted. These things break pieces holding your family together. I FAILED yesterday. It lead to fighting last night and not resolving anything because I hit buttons I didn’t need to. I let anger about the past guide my feelings towards what could happen in the future and ultimately solved nothing.

This is why Grace is so important. We all have bad days, we all lose hope in things from time to time, but grace from God and your partner is what gets you through. We are human, all imperfect just trying our best to walk in Gods grace (failing most of the time).

Corinthians 12:9 states “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefor I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

Hebrews 4:16 states ” Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”

There are many more verses that show grace and mercy when we fall but those are just a couple.

Last night, I gave it to God. I wanted sleep and I wanted peace. I apologized to my husband (which is still a work in progress for some of the things said and done) but I also said that God will handle it. Now this morning, it was still an issue, but patience is key in this. Gods grace and mercy aren’t instant. I needed to know that I was wrong and I still needed to work on things, mainly being respect but that is a different subject for a different day.

Gods grace and mercy has calmed me today, it has made me focus on things that will benefit me in the long run. Ways to be better. Things that benefit my future rather than hinder it. Understanding Grace and Mercy are the first steps to working towards becoming a Proverbs 31 woman.

So yes, its OK to fail sometimes as long as you Realize It, Resolve It and Move Forward from It. Look to God for Grace and Mercy. Pray about the issue, realize how things went wrong and ways to correct it and apologize to those that you hurt along the way.